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I am neither bitchy nor unapproachable. The sad thing is I am plain boring. That was a little redundant but yes, I am boring and plain. I speak when spoken to but I do not talk just like others do. I can’t help it. When someone sits beside me and I know him or her, I tend to be quieter. I am always left mental blocked when I can’t find the words to start a conversation. I just won’t talk and soon I will be leaving to relieve me of the awkward situation I am in. I did not know how to speak in public or even with a stranger. Everything was just strange. I fear that if I talk the person I am talking to might not speak to me so I just shut my mouth and my world at the same time. I cannot remember exactly how that came to be but certainly my fear was coming from somewhere concrete. Disclosing any of problems was also a big deal. I thought that I can do all things on my own. My dad was a single parent and he never really did talk me as a daughter. The talks were purely organizational so I really did have someone to talk to. In my first Landmark Forum I was able to observe many people talking to each other like it was not the first time they spoke to each other. That was really cool and soon thereafter my Landmark Education, I was able to somehow say hi-hello and brief self-introductions after observing how easy it could have been a few years ago.